Dragonfly Design

Hello all, Just wanted to let you know that I am still here, recovering slowly but surely!  My sneaker are now out of the closet and back on my feet, wearing away the tread on the pavement.  Not back to a full run yet, but on my way!  I was at the Y for the first time since the accident to workout.  Got the approval from the Doc.  I started off with a nice walk, slow but a nice pace.  Big smile on my face..... I was doin' it - getting back to my excersie routine that I loved so much.  I walked on the treadmill about a half mile and took off for a run - again slowly.  Felt good.  It was all coming back to me.... like they say if you fall off a horse get back up on it and ride!  That is what I did.  At about a mile, my back was saying NO! I stopped and walked a little bit.  Keeping a pace of a slow turtle... I was pissed, wanted to swear out loud, but held it in due to the fact that the other members at the Y would not appreciate my mood.  Then, there they were.... a little welling up in my eye, the tears made it hard to see - literally "hard to see".  At that moment I could not see me running again like I used to - disappointing - depressing - a blow to my usual optimistic out look on life.  Hard to see me recovering fully..... So there I am, what do I do.... drop to my knees and cry into my hands?  Would it help my back? NO! Would it make me feel better? NO!  I knew I needed to suck it up, wipe the tears and say that this is just the first time and that I needed to be positive.  So I moved from the machine, picked up some free weights and pumped up my muscle that didn't hurt and felt strong again.  Positive again, optimistic again.  STRONG!!  My motto while running had been for quite some time is I am Strong! - I am Confident!  I guess I just forgot for a little while.  I left the gym that day a little bit sore - heading right to the chiropractor feeling a little bit like my old self.  Talked to a friend later that day.  He told me this... you know how they say "I'll believe it when I see it", he then said "You will never see it until you beleive it!"  You have to Believe It Possible!  So now I can see it... I believe it possible, I believe it true.  I know my back may give out again on that treadmill, but I will slow up and let it be the boss - knowing that one day soon, it will not bother me anymore. I will recover because I believe it possible - simply enough.  Again to all my friends... You will never see it until you believe it so believe it possible!  Thanks for listening.